i miss the days

i miss those days when i was about 15 or 16
when all i really had to worry about was getting through my GCSEs, but barely doing any work and still doing fine.
i miss that it was actually ok not to give a shit.
i had few responsibilities.
i miss the star and garter and retro bar days
getting stupidly drunk
but being able to down vodka, straight
i miss the strictness of school
i miss the begginings and firsts of things
i miss feeling excited about getting into rockworld & later rock kitchen
people thinking i was much older than i actually was
i miss that it was just us girls, no one really to fuck us up
i was proper into placebo and jimmy eat world
my sister was at uni, but after was at home
i knew 'everyone', 'everyone' knew me.
now, everyone's moving on, growing up. half of me is still left behind, not growing up through memories i can't leave and staying in college.