meh x1000

I don't like today, or yesterday for that matter either.
valentine's day is wank. i did nothing, for the second year running.
i didn't even go to college, i just felt really crap. i felt crap this morning too. i felt like how i used to feel. that was pretty lame.
i wanted to have a free house next week while my folks go to see my family in coventry. i kinda wanted to work more shifts next week, what with it being half term and i could work during the day. my mum's making me feel guilty saying shit like, 'lets hope something doesn't happen to your grandma' and all this shite.
anyway, i wanted a mini shin-dig y'knows. nothing too big, i don't think my house or street could cope. so i mentioned the idea to rachael. she said i should ask the girls and byofriends. and i was just like, what the fuck no. i couldn't think of anything worse. i mean, don't get me wrong, i like them all but jesus. no way. i want people like sean and noel there. and y'know, people who aren't gonna be fuckin' eating someone's face.
man, i'm livid. and feeling completely sorry for myself. again. fuck's sake.